Thursday, May 22, 2008

I'll be back...

So, this will be my last blog entry from France. I leave Bordeaux tomorrow morning by train, spend the night in Paris, fly from Paris to Dublin and finally to Chicago on Saturday. All of the other Middlebury students have left, so it feels vaguely like the summer before freshman year when I was the last one to go to college. I've walked my favorite path around the city every night for the last 5 nights and it gets harder everytime. I had lunch with the women from the Red Cross center today, and dinner with my host family last night- it feels so weird saying goodbye to everyone. I don't think I realized until the very end how much of a life I have here. Everyone keeps telling me I have to come back, and I keep just saying, oui, I know. I would stay forever if I could.
I will miss being somewhere where everyone expects to find at least 5 bakeries in walking distance from their house. And somewhere where the afternoon snack has an official name and is religiously observed by everyone. This entry is mostly going to be my sad, rambling thoughts about france. I've finally figured out when to use the formal word for 'you' and when the informal one is ok, and now I feel so rude using 'you' for just anyone in english. I have figured out how to sound like a french teenager, using their equivalents for 'whatever' and 'like.' I know this city as well as most people here, better actually. This is the first place where I've really lived on my own (ignore the part about the host family). I feel more comfortable here than anywhere else, and I've made my own life here. I run into people on the streets that I know.
This is going to be a tricky re-adjustment. Until I move back, anyway.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

It's May?

It's May. I would probably believe you if you told me it was still March, but it's actually the middle of May. Short Recap: Megan and Dad came to visit me in March. We saw everything there is to see in Paris and Bordeaux in about 5 days. Maybe not everything, but we came pretty close. We had dinner with my host family where I was simultaneously translating between French and English for three hours; my head hurt at the end but it was fun. Megan bought a beret and some 'art,' of which she left the beret here and lost the 'art' on the Metro in Paris. I managed to survive all of my classes, just barely, and now just have two papers left to write. Tricky without a computer. We've already had our 'good-bye' picnic for everyone studying in Bordeaux. That was terrifying, especially since at the time I didn't even know what day I was leaving. For the record, I'm leaving on the 24th, which means leaving Bordeaux on the 23rd. Which means I have a week and a half left of what was once 9 months. I've started making lists of everything I want to see and do here before I leave, of everything I'm going to miss, of French words I've learned, of everything I'm looking forward to doing at home. Lots of lists. A few examples...

Stuff I'm going to miss from France:

Baguettes

Pastries

Sitting in cafes for hours

Cathedrals

Mustard


Stuff I won't miss:

Strikes/Protests

Euros

Public transportation

No computer...maybe not fair to put on the France list, but still

I'm going to campus today for the last time. The campus is the ugliest thing in Bordeaux so that makes it easier to say goodbye, but it's still weird that I'll probably never be back.
I celebrated my 21st birthday in France...which is a little anti-climatic but was still fun. We went to Biarritz, a surfing/resort town near the Spanish border for the day and just sat on the beach. I think it was about 85 degrees out, and I amazingly did not get incredibly sunburned. We came back to Bordeaux and hung out at Callie's house where they surprised me with a delicious brownie cake- I'm still impressed that they were able to make it in France. The next day I had dinner with my host family which was cute, the little girls were so excited. They gave me a really cute photo album which they promised to fill with pictures before I left, but I'm not sure if that will happen. I can't believe how fast this year has gone by, and I don't know if I'll be ready to leave in a week....



Sunday, March 9, 2008

Disconnected...

Just when I thought that I couldn't go any longer between blog posts, I broke my record. This time I have a better excuse: my computer's been broken since sometime in February. I'm working on it, but customer service is even less helpful in France. The new semester is underway: I'm taking Translation, Literary Art and History (if you understand what that means, you'll be better off than most of my class) and General Sociology. I also have an internship at a Red Cross center for young mothers. The center officially opens this week, so I'm excited to see how it actually works after the weeks of preparation. I'm by far the youngest working at the center, most of the women have kids or are already retired, but they are all very nice and love talking to their little American student (me). I'm suddenly speaking a lot more french in my everyday life since the internship is a lot more interactive than classes.
My supervisor, Isabelle, is very nice and has asked me to help teach her son English. So for one hour a week, I speak nothing but English with Pierre, which is a lot harder than it sounds because I keep trying to switch to French. Last week I babysat for her youngest son, Eduard, and we watched Harry Potter. He kept telling me what was going to happen just before it happened. He also was fascinated by the fact that I'm American. He kept asking me how I had learned English, and if I spoke English at home and if my family understood me. It was pretty funny trying to explain that it was just like French for him. Also, he asked me if I believed in Santa Claus and the Loch Ness monster. He isn't sure about Santa but he knows Nessie exists. However, he was a little shocked when I told him that if she does exist, she's in Scotland. I told him I wasn't sure about Nessie but I knew Santa exists.
I'm hoping Megan and Dad are coming to visit soon, but I suppose I won't know for sure until the day before. I'm excited to be able to show them around Bordeaux, now that I actually feel like I live here. I'm actually dreading leaving here; as much as I would like to be home and see everyone, I'm not ready to leave Bordeaux, especially since I don't know when I'll be back. I have a café that I go to nearly everyday with Callie and the waiters all know exactly what we order. Today I went alone since she's gone for the weekend and they asked where she was.
These next few months are going to fly by, between work and visiters and traveling...and it's already time to start thinking about housing and classes for senior year at Middlebury. That's even more shocking.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Walk Like an Egyptian

Hello everyone, I know it's been awhile. I'm now done with my exams. Finally. Having exams stretched between the middle of December and the last week of January really makes life complicated and continually stressful. But I'm done. Like everything in France, my exams were nothing like I expected. Some were shockingly broad- one political science exam included no actual questions but simply phrases that I was expected to respond to. Others were pleasantly shorter than we expected- my linguistics exam was seemingly missing the first section, and luckily that was the section I didn't know. Now, though, it's time to dive right into the second semester. Still trying to figure out my schedule, especially because I'm hoping to get an internship and that will change the number of credits I need. We will see...
I went to Egypt. It's okay if you didn't know, I didn't tell my parents until just before I left. I figured it was less time for them to worry about it. Egypt was incredible, frustrating, amazing, and sad. Possibly some more adjectives that I can't think of right now. I've never been anywhere that created so many emotions. So many conflicting emotions. I want to go back. And I want to go to Morocco, and South Africa, and everywhere else for that matter. But it was hard. I went with Sean, a friend from high school. I don't think you could really see Egypt if it was just a group of girls. I hate saying that. It bothers my feminist instincts. But so does Egypt in general. I brought a scarf with me, not sure how many women would cover their head. I would say less than 20 % were uncovered, so I felt painfully obvious walking down the streets uncovered. But I felt like a fraud when I wore my scarf. Everyone still knew that I wasn't Egyptian, or Muslim. And I couldn't decide whether it was more appropriate to cover my head when I didn't believe in it or to obviously defy their customs. Still, I tried, and I wore long sleeves and long pants everywhere. Which is more than I can say for the hordes of tourists at the main sites, who saw nothing of Egypt that didn't require an entrance ticket. Our hotel was right in downtown Cairo. Which can be terrifying, certainly at least just crossing the street requires a blatant disregard for your life, or as our guide book told us, "just use one of the locals as a shield. they usually don't mind." We were in the middle of Egypt. And in the middle of millions of Egyptians. Every time we stepped out the door. Of course our hotel was on the 8th floor of an old appartment building who elevators stopped working the second day we were there. So stepping out the door was more of a process than what it sounds. We tried to really explore the city. It's overwhelming, though, with the traffic and the locals. In Italy, there's also people selling things and calling out as you walk down the streets. But not to the same extent as in Egypt. Egyptians are friendly, but taxi drivers, tour guides, papyrus makers are everywhere, just waiting to sell you something. Most often we heard locals offer a quiet "welcome" as we walked by, though I was also complemented on my eyebrows, hair, etc. One man told me to call him after I took my black nail polish off. Everyone assumed we were married, because I don't think many Egyptians travel together as friends. After we explained that we weren't, most of the men offered to marry me themselves. One man who ran an alabastor factory gave me "his heart." I walked away with a few souvenir pieces of alabastor, and in fact a carved alabastor heart. Does that mean we are married now? Probably. The obvious parts of Egypt are as incredible as expected. You can't hide the immensity or the grace of the Pyramids. Or the Valley of the Kings. Or any of it really. There were times when it felt a little too touristy but the ruins spoke for themselves. There are a million Egyptians at every tourist destination willing to give you the back tour or point out an extra hieroglyph for a few extra Egyptian pounds. There are separate tickets for nearly everything, as you can pay one price just to walk around the ruins, another to actually go in, probably another to take pictures...you never know. We hired a taxi for the day and traveled to the first pyramid, the Step Pyramid at Saccara. Then we stopped at Memphis, the old capital. And finally, the Pyramids of Giza. We rode a camel for a short trip from one pyramid to another, literally using the last of our money. That's always an effective bargaining tool, when you really have no more money. I enjoyed the ride between destinations almost as much as the destinations themselves, sitting in the back of a dusty taxi listening to Egyptian music and driving through the countryside of Egypt. Our driver stopped so we could eat oranges that his sister sells by the side of the road. My first impulse is to call Cairo dirty. But I think it's really just dusty. Understandable, considering the desert and the age of everything. It's loud and dusty, but surprisingly more charming than expected. We were invited by several people on the street to go to a coffeehouse and drink "shai" with them, Egyptians drink tea maybe 10 times a day and it's such a social activity. We met a surprising number of Egyptians who had lived in Minnesota. Everyone associates Chicago with Al Capone. I was so impressed with their English. Not just those in the tourist industry, but many of the people of the street spoke near perfect English. I want to learn Arabic.
We took the night train down to Luxor, which is where the Valley of the Kings, Valley of the Queens, Colossi of Memnon, etc. are located. We ended up joining a small tour organized by a hotel owner which took us to all of the spots we wanted to see. I have no pictures of the mummies or the inside of the tombs, as you're not allowed to bring your camera inside, and I don't know that I can even describe them. But they are incredible. The officials had only recently returned King Tut's mummy to his tomb, so we saw both the outer sarcophagus and his mummy inside. Most of the spoils are in the Egyptian Museum in Cairo, which is an incredible maze of discoveries. But the tombs themselves retain an almost austere glory. Hatshepsut's Temple seems nearly untouched as you first approach it. Up close, sure, there's fallen columns and destroyed paintings. But still. It's incredible. The Colossi of Memnon are, well, gigantic. And I made the tour stop so I could at least get a picture from the side of the road of the Ramesseum, which has the fallen statue of Ramses II that Shelley wrote about in his poem 'Ozymandias.' No one else understood why I wanted to see it. After our tour, the hotel owner appeared and invited us to his home to see the real Egypt. Although we were both a little nervous, I'm so glad that we did. He lives with his sister and her husband, and their four daughters in a small house near the Colossi of Memnon, in the middle of a small farming community. His sister kept bringing dishes out of the kitchen, and they were all delicious. I hated that she didn't just sit and eat with us though, although I don't think she spoke any English. The four daughters were adorable and hilarious. They loved our digital cameras, chewing gum and tried teaching us a little bit of Arabic. But you could already see the difference between the oldest, who was about 9, and the others. She came into the room with her head uncovered, but quickly left and returned with a scarf. Her younger sisters tore off their scarves as soon as they were in the room. She tended to stand off to the side, waiting for her uncle to tell her what to bring him or where to go. After a while, she started joining in on the fun, but it was sad to see how much more reserved she was. It was an incredible afternoon, though, relaxing and an amazing view into Egypt that I never expected to get. After our late lunch, we headed to the banks of the Nile where we took a 'felucca,' or basically a sailboat, ride. It was so relaxing and beautiful. And incredible to be out on the Nile. Luckily, I saw no crocodiles. We returned to Cairo that night, and the next day we explored Coptic Cairo. Ten percent of Cairo is Coptic Christian and their quarter contains some amazing buildings. We saw the Ben Ezra Synagogue, the oldest in Egypt and supposedly where the Jews gathered after escaping Nebuchadnezzar. Just around the outside wall is the spring where the Pharaoh's daughter supposedly found Moses in the reeds. We also saw the Hanging Church, from around the 6th century. By the end of our time in Cairo, we had nearly mastered 'Gad,' the Egyptian fast food restaurant that our hotel recommended. Everything was in arabic so we learned just to ask for some kind of sandwich and take what we got. One day we got four falafel sandwiches for about one dollar. One day I might have gotten pigeon. We're not sure.
It's hard to love a city where you don't feel comfortable. And I don't think that I could ever really feel comfortable in Cairo. Certainly not by myself, and not entirely even with anyone else. But I want to go back. I want to explore it again. I want to see more of "real Egypt." But that will be later. My next goal is Morocco.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Double Dare

So Callie dared me to be a vegetarian for the two weeks before we go home. Ignoring the obvious obstacle of living with a French family (which is exactly why Callie has her own apartment), it's been three and a half days. Being a vegetarian in France is hard. Yesterday there were no sandwiches without meat left in any of the stores when I went to have lunch...let's just say I'm really looking forward to eating a nice Christmas dinner.

Also, I am now a legal (temporary) resident of France. I have a shiny laminated Residency Permit and everything. With a terrible picture. I wanted to go to the Photomaton in Gare du Nord last time I was in Paris to get my pictures taken as a little homage to "Amelie," but I would have missed my train from Gare Montparnasse. Oh well, the little grocery store down the street is just a little less poetic. I've also started giving my name as "Amelie" when I order pizza. Not that they understand me any better, since last time they wrote down "Marie," but I really hate the name "Emilie" in french. It's just not pretty...

Tomorrow the professors vote on whether we'll have first semester exams at the end of January instead of our semester break or if they'll push them back til April. In general, I'm a fan of procrastination. But April seems a little extreme. I really hope they vote for January, as I'll still have a decent break between my Science-Po exams at the beginning of January and the Bordeaux 3 exam period. But we'll see...

Monday, December 3, 2007

Pictures of everywhere in France except for Bordeaux

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Enough foie gras to last a lifetime...






This weekend, Middlebury organized a trip to Dordogne, home of the caves of Lascaux, some beautiful chateaux and, of course, foie gras. The region itself is beautiful, weirdly reminiscent of the English countryside. Well, I haven't actually been to England, but that's what it reminded me of anyway. Or possibly Vermont? Everytime I go somewhere it seems to remind me of somewhere else. I have all these vague memories of one place or another, but I want to go somewhere that's entirely new. Maybe there is no such place, maybe I'll always be looking for something vaguely familiar. Either way, Dordogne is lovely. Rolling green hills, very cozy looking cottages. Medieval cities. Ancient art. The caves of Lascaux are awe-inspiring, with such detail and immense dimensions. But then again, we only saw the replicas. Since their discovery in 1940, the actual caves have been occasionally on display to the public; however, after a scare with bacteria only scientists are allowed in the originals. Instead, they created an exact replica practically next to the actual caves. One woman spent four years painstakinly duplicating the massive paintings in a man-made cave. It sounds cheesy, and it is, kind of. It's hard to explain because before and after you're in the cave, you can't help but be aware of the actual caves that you're missing out on. They're noted as much for their age as for their beauty, and the ones that I saw were drawn in the 80s. However, when you are inside, you forget that. It is incredible to see them, to try and understand all the drawings. When (or if) they re-open the original, I would love to be able to see them.
We spent Sunday exploring the medieval town of Sarlat. It's incredibly well preserved, with dozens of houses from the 14th, 15th and 16th centuries. The hotel we stayed in was from the 15th century, and Susan and I were at the top of the tower. It was a nice weekend, seeing a different, quieter side of France. Bordeaux itself is a step down from Paris, but a quite different from the little villages I always imagined. I think Sarlat reminded me most of Rothenburg, Germany. Charming, warm (in spirit anyway, although luckily it didn't rain most of the time).
And now I'm back to reality. After three weeks of strikes, we are returning to class. For three weeks before Christmas break. No one, not even the professors really, understands how we'll be able to cover everything, take our exams, etc. I'm divided because I sympathize with the students. Ironically, they were fighting to keep French universities from becoming more like American universities. And while I'm rather partial to our university system, I don't know that it's the best fit for France. The students are worried about the universality of their degrees if each university can decide its program. In a country where young people have a terrible time finding employment, I can understand why anything that might further hurt their chances would be terrifying. And the students were rebelling against Sarkozy in general, and his conservative agenda. My host family keeps telling me that no one should be complaining because Sarkozy is just doing exactly what he said he would do. But I don't think the students elected Sarkozy, the man who half the french refer to as the "American." And I promise it's not a term of endearment.
The stereotype of American-French relations is certainly exagerrated. I've never had any real problems, if anything I'm a curiosity in Bordeaux because few American tourists realize Bordeaux is a city and not just a wine. But there is a subtle pro-British sentiment anyway, if not overtly anti-American. When they have to choose between Anglo-Saxon powers, the French prefer the British. The kids in my second grade English class have told me that I don't actually speak english because I'm American. Also, they have a map of english-speaking countries in the classroom that doesn't include the United States. Americans don't speak real english. Americans aren't as cultured as the British. Even when people recognize my accent, I've never once been asked if I'm American. It's always British first. Sometimes a very long list of Polish, German, Swedish, etc, before I finally cave and admit to being American.